Welcome to my inner acceptance journey!
Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders This past weekend I watched the much-anticipated film To The Bone, and these were my initial reactions: what the hell was that? it was completely unrealistic. it made the treatment seem like a joke, it emphasized the already stereotypical body type associated with anorexia. they barely focussed on recovery. the therapist didn't…
Trigger Warning: disordered thoughts, heavily retouched photo For those of you who follow me on Instagram or are friends with me on Facebook have probably noticed that I've been participating in Kenzie Brenna's #SelfLoveBootcamp for the month of July. There's a different theme every day, and I've honestly found it really helpful so far. I…
When I was a little girl I exercised because I enjoyed it. I did ballet from age four to fourteen because I was in love with the grace and beauty of the movements, and how happy it made me feel. I took swim lessons from age five to eleven because there was something so…
On Monday, May 1st I graduated from Portland DBT Institute! I said goodbye to the therapist I have become so attached to since March of 2016. I hate saying goodbyes. In particular to therapists. We are expected to open up to a therapist and to be raw and honest. It typically becomes one of the…
WOW, it's been nearly two months since I've blogged. I can't believe I let so much time slip away without writing on here. Despite my being somewhat shocked at the time lapsed I know exactly why I've stayed away. Before I get into that I just want to give a couple of updates. Updates: NEDAwareness…
Trigger Warning: eating disorder behaviors, weight loss, weight gain, body dysmorphia As I have mentioned in previous posts, right now I am actually in a really stable place with my eating disorder. What exactly do I mean by that? Well, I haven't engaged in an eating disorder behavior in five and a half months so…
Trigger Warning: eating disorder behaviors This time of year can be so difficult, especially for those of us with eating disorders. From food being such a big part of the holidays to the potentially difficult times with family to the comments of "Oh next year my resolution is to lose x amount of pounds." It's…
Trigger Warning: eating disorder behaviors THREE MONTHS BEHAVIOR FREE!! December 9th, 2016, marks exactly 3 months since the last time I engaged in an eating disorder behavior. Let me take a moment to express how genuinely proud I am of myself!! This is the longest chunk of time I've been without behaviors in a very…
Trigger Warning: eating disorder behaviors, weight restoration, weight loss, weight gain, body dysmorphia This topic has been affecting my life the last couple of years, it's been at the forefront of my mind the last couple of months, and I've been wanting to blog about it the last couple of weeks. I've been insanely stressed…
Trigger Warning: eating disorder behaviors For those of you who know me, know that I am a very optimistic person. I always try to find a positive spin on every situation, at least most situations. So last week I was home with the stomach flu, which is, of course, a really miserable situation. But to try…
Emily W. Locke 